It’s just beyond me… Part XVI

Seventeenth session.-As I said, the fact is that there are secrets that should never come out. Even though at some point someone always finds out about them.
I only have one secret that I never, ever told …Never.

But I'll tell you … because when you actually manage to get an achievement you always have to tell  someone about it, if not, it's no fun at all.

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Of course, like in the "And then there were none". Pride pushes me into telling a real person about it. It's very romantic and all to throw my confession to the sea like a message in a bottle… but it's not quite the same thing as actually telling someone about it, you know … Oy! How very rude…

Do you want me to tell you or not?

Well then I won't tell you. 

Oh don't look at me like that… I just can't say no to those eyes… 

You blackmailer, you… What kind of a therapist are you?

Well, I do need an ego boost… But if I didn't you would have to live with the doubt of what I was about to tell you until the day you die…

Well, you know how some of the stories I've told you about my past don't make much sense… and how I told you I used to smoke a lot…

Well.. the truth is I was quite a bit of a junky, actually. I was high 99% of the time all through my teens and as a young adult… 

Yes.

I know.

Oh come on, What do you mean this explains so many things? Well, I'm happy to hear it. There, you see, it's always better to tell the truth.  Even though in this particular case I feel quite embarrassed. No, I am not so mad.

No, no… what I told you about Guinevere is true! I wasn't high back then! I swear!

Well, that is my best kept secret. I was addicted to weed… Ironic, isn't it?

Well, you're my shrink… I hope you can tell me why on earth all these things make no sense to me whatsoever… I've been going through them for years in my head but they are just beyond me…

Well, I'm happy it's come out… even though it was so very long ago. Well… and you can't tell anyone… remember?

I was such a good actress when I was young! I'm glad I told you about it! I feel like a retired spy… or a drug runner…

Well, I'd better go, it's late. See you next week! Bye bye.